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[Silas]

Making this just to play out scenarios with what I now know, I had voted Jamal at F11.

Jamal goes at F11.
Sarah doesn't have her close ally.
Sarah-Jefra-Phoebe probably on the outs.
Me-Andrea-Alicia-Aubry-Zach stay 5 strong and rally Locky, and Hayden by extension.
Locky thought he was close with Sarah, so either Jefra-Phoebe go at F10, unless I decide to do something crazy with the 4-3-3 and boot Zach, lmfao.
If one of Phoebe/Jefra leaves at 10, the other still wins immunity at the double boot and the other IC winner is perhaps Locky? If that's the case, I might have left there as well, but I'd still have my coin (which I should've had if I didn't get paranoid, but ALAS). If Zach leaves at 10, Phoebe-Jefra still win immunity, I play my coin and maybe 2 of Aubry-Alicia-Andrea go?
At F7 Sarah would be in the position Andrea was at F6. Locky-Hayden-Sarah are a strong 3, possibly with Jefra in there too. Me-Alicia-Zah/Aubry are scattered.

In short, I don't think I'd have had a much better route ahead of me despite whatever I did at F11. I blame being swapped on the worse tribe, with the worse players. Had I met Hayden-Locky-Sarah-Jefra at the swap, my game would've been completely different. But it was meant to be SPENCER (and Jamal, but still) on that tribe.

[Silas]

And obviously trusting Sarah over Locky too. But Locky was close with the 2 people I didn't want to do anything with, lol. Survivor is a game of association, I've always thought so. Oh well.

[Silas]

Or maybe, just maybe, I should've forgotten for a second my dislike for Jamal and closed my eyes? Let the vote be on Jefra from Aubry and Co., not get paranoid at F10, and then maybe I could've kept my 50/50 coin at F9 to until F7? But Jamal's in-game actions made me really dislike him pre-swap and at the merge, but he had too many people on his side at that point. ALAS. Zach should've left F11 and I should've pretended to be with Jamal still, until a better time to vote him out.

[Silas]

Well, okay, I was right not to trust Jamal at the merge, he did lie about the idol and what not. He betrayed my trust pre-swap and then at the merge. But voting him out at F11 would've still screwed me, lol. I was in such a terrible position at the merge!!