Diary room

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Aubry once again asked whether I have an idol, it does make me feel like she's suspicious of me, perhaps she's going to try to vote me out. Alicia asked me, too. It sucks, but there isn't much I can do about that. Allegedly, Silas told Grant that Jaime is a mastermind, somehow manipulated Brenda, and was planning on voting one of us out. I'm not sure whether I believe that. I want Silas out next, but perhaps Jaime is a bigger threat?

Knowing that Alicia is loyal is a huge relief, I think that Grant wants to stay with Vuku too. It's really difficult, trying to work with people that are barely on, though. Vuku 5 is supposed to split the vote between Silas and Jaime, but we still have plenty of time, to change our minds. I really do hope that Aubry and Andrea have my back, I made all of these relationships, I turned on people, only to ensure our safety as a trio. It'd suck, but I'm fully expecting the Brenda blindside to affect my game in a negative way. This game is very tiring, and I keep playing so hard. I was the one building fake relationships in the last couple of days, and I think that, it made me a huge target. I do feel like keeping Alicia and Grant in the game, is a little bit unfair, considering how little they talk, but I don't want to be the first one to turn on Vuku. Jaime is a bit inactive, too. I've been working on Silas for hours, and he's still decided to confide in Grant over me. 

I think that I can win this game, but only if Aubry and Andrea actually have my back. I like to think that we're in this together, considering how much time we've invested into the game and our alliance, but you can never get too confident. I'm never going to turn on my alliance, but everyone has a different strategy, so I can't blame them, if they do decide to vote for me. I don't know how many rounds I'd have to survive to make the merge, but I'm hopeful that I can make it. It'd be really lame if inactives stayed over me, but at the same time, I'm so exhausted by this point, I'd consider getting voted out, a mercy kill.

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Grant wants Alicia out again. He keeps changing his mind all the time, he's barely ever on, but he keeps acting like he's in charge. Lame stuff.

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We're about to vote Grant out, and it made me realize how it's honestly been a really easy swap, for our Vuku 3 alliance. This vote was so simple, and it was decided so quickly, that all we can do at this point, is focus on the future. There's some people on the NuRarotonga, that I'd really love to work with, I'm honestly hoping that they haven't forgotten about me. I might be safe this round, but I still care about safety of some of my former tribemates. The first few days on NuVuku were emotionally draining, they made me question my passion for the game - hopefully the next part of the game is going to end up being much more positive. There's absolutely nothing I can to help the other tribe out, and I want this game to have a positive impact on everyone's life, so it was surprisingly difficult, dealing with some of the accusations, made in the last couple of days.

I don't know if merge is actually coming tonight, I'd rather not get my hopes up. If anything, I feel like, it's been a week of not interacting with the other tribe. There's probably some strong alliances on the other side, and strong relationships, and I'm hopeful that, the relationships I've built are still solid, but I honestly doubt it.


I think that us 5 are going to stick together, I still don't trust Alicia, it must be humiliating for some people, to see her make the merge, but it is the numbers game, and we're basically using her as an unreliable, expandable number. I still don't think Silas likes me, but I gave so much effort and time, into building a bond with him, I'd be really surprised, if he turned on me. I'm not planning on making the finals with him, I think he's a huge threat, just because of how many times he's survived being on the bottom, and he's very passionate about the game, which I greatly respect. Andrea is still cool, and I wonder about, how close she is with the other Vuku people. Hayden seems to like her, I can see other people liking her, but I think that I'd articulate myself better at final tribal council. Aubry is cool, too! I do feel like Jaime and Brenda misjudged her, by calling her a gamebot and all. I think it's really sad how entitled some people are... And I think you should keep people chances, until you're absolutely sure, that you're not feeling them.


I'm not sure how I feel about Sarah, I think that I'm just going to let Aubry work on her. I didn't get to know her well, but there was always something shady about her. I would love to know how Jefra positioned herself on the other tribe. When it comes to Hayden... I don't like him, there's rumors floating around about him possibly knowing things, that he shouldn't have known about. It makes me question his integrity and, I don't think I'm willing to work with him.

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Poor Locky is getting barely any time to sleep.

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We've finally merged. Aubry came up with an idea to split the vote between Silas and Jamal, but that isn't happening. NuRarotonga's plan is to blindside Aubry, but I don't think that's good for my game. I know that Jamal is fully aware of the plan, but he's not telling me anything. I'm hoping to align with him, gain his trust, and hopefully we can blindside Jefra this round. I think that Silas and Jamal could be the swing votes. I mean, I'm hoping to get Aubry, Alicia, Andrea and Silas to get to vote Jefra. If we're all solid, Jamal would be foolish, to try and vote against us. It all depends on how close he is with NuRarotonga.

I'd love to get Hayden and Sarah out, but that's not possible, so Jefra will have to do. Making a move, at this point in the game, isn't the smartest decision, but this game is all about keeping people you can trust. Jefra doesn't belong in that category. If anything goes wrong, hopefully Locky is going to save me, and Aubry is still the other side's target.

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That didn't go well. I had the worst conversation ever with Jamal. 

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My BDE is gone.

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Locky is going to forgive me for turning on him.

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Brenda going off on Alicia on Skype after getting voted out. That's funny, but many people seem to know each other... How lame. Silas told me that he knows Jamal, that he has some issues, hosted games, lied about having a wife. 

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