round 10

[Jefra]

oookay so, wow, its already final 7 and WHEW how time is flying

I decided to be a little bit innovative and type this up on a word doc on my pc so I can email it to myself and then post it, because between work and not having much time at home every day, things are quickly getting away from me

but as far as the game goes, I think I’m in an okay position? I would like to think so but there are very few people left and I did just blindside locky so I feel like I’m the most visible as I’ve ever been

so last round jamal had tossed around the idea of getting out locky for fear that he had the idol and we wanted to blindside him in case he did have it, and yeah, I’m fine with that. I really don’t have any vested interest in locky staying, and everyone else saw silas as a slimy snake which, he sort of was but he never did anything snaky to me that put me in a danger so I really didn’t care if he was still in the game, but ultimately he had to go too to give me a better shot at winning. So then sarah comes to me and is all like, jamal and phoebe mentioned wanting to vote for locky, would you be down for that? I played dumb like I didn’t already know that was the plan and agreed to do it. Apparently towards the end of the vote and near the deadline, sarah had realized that she needed to vote for silas or else the vote could have tied for the second person to leave. And apparently sarah had communicated that to jamal and asked jamal to tell me that she was doing that but then he never did, and in fact acted like he was surprised that sarah did that. I called him out for it and he basically just said he was trying to use it as a way to pin sarah out as an enemy which he really didn’t need to do because I do that already. I think jamal and sarah are closer than I think which is a bit scary because jamal is truly the only person that I feel I can trust.

but on the other hand, aubry has never lied to me and always told me who she’s voting and followed through with that. So I do know that she is trustworthy but we’ve voted against each other every single round of the merge and I’m very sure that if she were to be in the end with me that she would probably take the cake. I think that sarah, hayden, and aubry all need to go if I want a true shot at winning this game. I’m hoping by the time that that happens and if somehow I DO make it to the end, I can put on my big girl rhetoric pants and convince everyone that everything I’ve done in this game was very intentional and is the reason I made it

but ugh, it’s so hard not to look forward to the end at this point but there’s still a lot of time left to go before then and there’s at least 4 other people that need to go before the end is here

I’m just hoping that jamal really does want to go to the end with me. I almost feel like I’m looked at as the goat to go to the end which I’m totally fine with. My goal is to make it to the end and then figure it out later. Might not be the most fool proof way but if it gives me a shot at winning this game, I’ll take it

so this round I’m trying to decide if I want to vote out sarah or aubry. I mean, I know which one I WANT to vote. I want sarah to go. But im afraid to push too hard for sarah to go because jamal and hayden (I think) would much rather have aubry leave at this point and jamal thinks that if we don’t vote aubry out now that we’ll be “handing the game to aubry” but idk about you, sarah is clearly the bigger contender out of those two. Aubry has been on the outs the whole time and I really don’t think many people on the jury respect her as much as jamal thinks. But ideally, jamal, phoebe, and I can make it to the end. That’s who I’m wanting in the final 3. Might not be the most EXCITING but that’s gonna give me the best shot to win

so if theres any way that I can vote for sarah tonight and get her out, that’s what I’ll do. Also I’ve spoken to both hayden and aubry and they’ve both confirmed that they don’t want to vote me out and im assuming that’s true but theres no real way of knowing

ugh ive come this far! Ive got to make it to the end