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Post by jamal on Jun 16, 2020 21:45:07 GMT -5
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Post by jamal on Jun 16, 2020 21:46:18 GMT -5
Silas just spent the last thirty minutes yelling at me, dealiasing me, and calling me, among other things, too stubborn, an "awful person to talk to," and emotional mess. He told me that he'd never get his vote in the end, which, quite frankly, I'm okay with at this point.
I'm remembering why I quit these games now.
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Post by jamal on Jun 16, 2020 22:38:04 GMT -5
I don't like to be emotionally vulnerable, but apparently Silas thinks I am a mess. I'm only confirming it at this point, but I'm going through some stuff in real life that is making me question whether I want to continue in this game. Honestly, I fear that I'll make it to the end and have to deal with what Silas put me through over and over again by everyone. I think I played a decent game, but maybe I haven't? I'm probably going to delete this confessional at some point.
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Post by Shadow on Jun 16, 2020 22:41:18 GMT -5
Keep your head up! You've been a delight!  |
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Post by estelle on Jun 16, 2020 23:22:44 GMT -5
You haven’t had the easiest journey through the game but you have been so great to watch! I hope you continue in the game but mental health is so important. Take care of yourself, try to get some rest, and take some breaks when necessary. The way you feel about yourself is the most important thing and it can be hard to focus on that while playing a social game where perception is deemed reality. Hang in there!!  |
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Post by kevin on Jun 17, 2020 1:29:51 GMT -5
You’re amazing man, seriously.
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Post by jamal on Jun 17, 2020 9:45:02 GMT -5
Thanks for all the kind words guys. I'm taking the morning off to think more about it.
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Post by jamal on Jun 17, 2020 14:00:35 GMT -5
I'm still thinking about what I want to do here, whether or not I want to continue, etc. But I thought I'd write up about my path moving forward and what is happening right now:
- Hayden has basically refused to talk to me all day and all yesterday. I want to work with him, but he isn't doing himself any favors.
- Aubry made me grovel and tell her that she was "right" about Silas in order to talk to her. I mean, I knew that Silas was sketchy three rounds ago -- I just thought that you were more sketchy, Aubry.
- I am growing a lot closer to Jefra right now than I thought I would. She is going to chat up Andrea/Aubry to see what their plans are.
- Sarah, of course, is my #1 -- even if I don't expect to win against her, the plan is to be there at the end. Although I wouldn't mind her at the F3 with someone like Jefra & let Jefra win the challenge to get me into the Final 2.
Ideally, I'd like Aubry out this round, Hayden the next, Andrea the following with a Final 4 of Sarah/Jefra/Phoebe/I. I don't know if that's in the cards. Ultimately, I think I have many paths forward. The key is to get people out who have shown no interest in working with me (Hayden/Aubry) the next couple of rounds.
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