Post by Jefra on Jun 12, 2020 1:57:13 GMT -5
ok sorry i didnt make a confessional for round 7 which was the ONLY ROUND that ive voted so far but like... um the proof is in the pudding. i think spencer could have actually made an impact in this game if he really wanted to but it just seemed like he was burnt out or something or just lacked self awareness. not sure. spencer if you read this after the game, it was not hard to vote you out because it did not seem like you were interested in me at all other than thinking i was funny, which gave you some brownie points in my book but ultimately did not stop me from voting for you without a second thought
now for this round, whew...
okay so first off, made the merge! like, wow, life is just flying by and so is my life in this game. i'm trying to savor it as much as i can but damn, work really is getting the best of me and then today my car fucked up and i had to get it towed and i'm supposed to be a music festival but corona fucking ruined it and so it's just been a whole whirlwind of emotions for me
but as far as game goes, i've said it once and i'll say it again. jamal is my absolute favorite. i'm a bit scared that he's everyone's favorite and they've all got this little secret thing going on with him but at the same time, i doubt it because of what happened after the immunity challenge tonight. as in all of OG vuku made a chat and was talking about getting rid of jamal and splitting the vote between jamal and silas. i immediately went and ratted all of this out to jamal (review previous commentary) because there's no way i'm letting this happen. as much as i would love to win this game, i do not feel like spending time with people who really don't seem to actually care about my place in this game or treat me as a valid player even though i've proven myself time and time again in challenges and have a lot to offer on the social front. maybe it's their problem and not mine? but also i have been getting a lot closer with some of the others. hayden and sarah in particular. i try hard with locky but again, it's just not really clicking. and now that there are more people to talk to, i've been even more overwhelmed which leaves me feel like i'm slacking getting to know everyone on a more intimate level, but maybe that will help me in the long run
ugh i really am just very conflicted about all of this that's going on. my full trust and motivation for my game is based on the relationship i have with jamal, which probably isn't healthy but i just get along with the dude extremely well and i think we balance each other out. we've got a good thing going and i'm hoping that it's not one sided and that he sees me the same way
as far as this vote goes, like i mentioned, there is a split happening between jamal and silas... which is actually not happening at all because then there's another chat made which includes all of nurarotonga minus spencer of course. i tell jamal this is happening before it's actually made. i want him to know that i really do prioritize him because i know that other people like him as well but i want him to like me the best and treat me as his closest ally. and he is well spoken but i do think that i would be able to fight my case and potentially win against him in the end
but he's a bit worried and i can tell because of what people have been saying as far as wanting him out. but the majority of the votes are with nurarotonga + silas right now. silas is a pretty chatty boy and is easy to get along with but alicia has painted him in a bad light by saying that he is such a kiss ass, so now every time i talk to him i feel like i'm thinking about him being a kiss ass instead of trying to make my own judgments
but he did come to me and said he would be fine voting for one of the nuvuku people
earlier on in the game i considered aubry my closest but obviously things have changed and, so at this point, we may be voting her
we as in nurarotonga + silas. even without silas i think it would still work because of the split. there's just so much risk happening right now and this is really the first time i've actually had to spend time thinking about strategy and who to vote and stuff so it's uber stressful for me right now + all the real life shit happening
i think my hair loss increased from 50% to 52% in just tonight because of everything i'm worried about!
but like i said on my instagram earlier and what i do truly believe in my heart, no matter what happens, i do think everything will be okay
but as far as what JEFRA is wanting to do? i think i would want to vote for aubry, so that andrea and alicia are more exposed and have to play a more aggressive game and can't hide behind aubry's visibility and eagerness to find out the details of the game
but i know if i do that, alicia is going to be pissed at me and probably won't consider me as an ally, but hopefully we can keep that connection close and mend it as time goes on. same goes with andrea, but she's really a lot more down to earth and chill and i think that's a good quality to have. she doesn't seem to be that bullshitty but i do bet she's got some kind of side to her that i don't know about yet
all of this + auction item talk and idol paranoia gives jefra a bit of gas but hey, they make pills for that
now for this round, whew...
okay so first off, made the merge! like, wow, life is just flying by and so is my life in this game. i'm trying to savor it as much as i can but damn, work really is getting the best of me and then today my car fucked up and i had to get it towed and i'm supposed to be a music festival but corona fucking ruined it and so it's just been a whole whirlwind of emotions for me
but as far as game goes, i've said it once and i'll say it again. jamal is my absolute favorite. i'm a bit scared that he's everyone's favorite and they've all got this little secret thing going on with him but at the same time, i doubt it because of what happened after the immunity challenge tonight. as in all of OG vuku made a chat and was talking about getting rid of jamal and splitting the vote between jamal and silas. i immediately went and ratted all of this out to jamal (review previous commentary) because there's no way i'm letting this happen. as much as i would love to win this game, i do not feel like spending time with people who really don't seem to actually care about my place in this game or treat me as a valid player even though i've proven myself time and time again in challenges and have a lot to offer on the social front. maybe it's their problem and not mine? but also i have been getting a lot closer with some of the others. hayden and sarah in particular. i try hard with locky but again, it's just not really clicking. and now that there are more people to talk to, i've been even more overwhelmed which leaves me feel like i'm slacking getting to know everyone on a more intimate level, but maybe that will help me in the long run
ugh i really am just very conflicted about all of this that's going on. my full trust and motivation for my game is based on the relationship i have with jamal, which probably isn't healthy but i just get along with the dude extremely well and i think we balance each other out. we've got a good thing going and i'm hoping that it's not one sided and that he sees me the same way
as far as this vote goes, like i mentioned, there is a split happening between jamal and silas... which is actually not happening at all because then there's another chat made which includes all of nurarotonga minus spencer of course. i tell jamal this is happening before it's actually made. i want him to know that i really do prioritize him because i know that other people like him as well but i want him to like me the best and treat me as his closest ally. and he is well spoken but i do think that i would be able to fight my case and potentially win against him in the end
but he's a bit worried and i can tell because of what people have been saying as far as wanting him out. but the majority of the votes are with nurarotonga + silas right now. silas is a pretty chatty boy and is easy to get along with but alicia has painted him in a bad light by saying that he is such a kiss ass, so now every time i talk to him i feel like i'm thinking about him being a kiss ass instead of trying to make my own judgments
but he did come to me and said he would be fine voting for one of the nuvuku people
earlier on in the game i considered aubry my closest but obviously things have changed and, so at this point, we may be voting her
we as in nurarotonga + silas. even without silas i think it would still work because of the split. there's just so much risk happening right now and this is really the first time i've actually had to spend time thinking about strategy and who to vote and stuff so it's uber stressful for me right now + all the real life shit happening
i think my hair loss increased from 50% to 52% in just tonight because of everything i'm worried about!
but like i said on my instagram earlier and what i do truly believe in my heart, no matter what happens, i do think everything will be okay
but as far as what JEFRA is wanting to do? i think i would want to vote for aubry, so that andrea and alicia are more exposed and have to play a more aggressive game and can't hide behind aubry's visibility and eagerness to find out the details of the game
but i know if i do that, alicia is going to be pissed at me and probably won't consider me as an ally, but hopefully we can keep that connection close and mend it as time goes on. same goes with andrea, but she's really a lot more down to earth and chill and i think that's a good quality to have. she doesn't seem to be that bullshitty but i do bet she's got some kind of side to her that i don't know about yet
all of this + auction item talk and idol paranoia gives jefra a bit of gas but hey, they make pills for that
