Round 4 - aka my 4th trip to tribal
Jun 6, 2020 17:59:00 GMT -5
Justinmon, diva, and 2 more like this
Post by brendaxo on Jun 6, 2020 17:59:00 GMT -5
well well well
where do i start
first of all, sorry ive been MIA im trying to be a good employee, friend, daughter, sister, and now a good alias survivor player all at the same time and it just hasn't been easy. lots of things going on in my personal life and this world in general. im kind of emotionally exhausted.
game talk,
sorry i missed round 3. did i tell you guys jamal told me he found the idol? yay! im happy he felt comfy enuf to tell me because if i found one, idk if i would ever tell anyone. i also havent been looking for the idol i honestly havent had the time lol plus i believe in working smarter, not harder. if all my allies are looking for clues, then im hoping they will be willing to share them with me and we can kind of figure shit out together lol
anyways.
i understand jamal might be feeling frustrated bc he hasnt gotten his way all game. and then we voted out marcus over ph (phoebe but i will call them ph) and spencer. but tbh, ph was never an option to vote out for me. i trust them for now at least, and spencer... i would vote out spencer but he is kind of good at comps and we needed to keep in that strength. i also feel like maybe he likes me more than i think he does. i feel bad im always dragging him in my convos with people lol. dnt really care that marcus had to go. he was super sweet when we spoke but we didnt really bond as tightly
and then there was the swap. and jamal's worst case scenario happened. so sorry jamal. i guess im not completely mad that they won the challenge over my tribe but that only counts if this loss doesnt come at my expense. as in yeah im goign to tribal, but hopefully its not me or one of my people going home. which at this very moment. 14 minutes before the vote, i am feeling extremely paranoid that i have fucked this vote up and either jaime, myself or silas is going home .
i came on this tribe and thought i developed a good relationship with zach. i thought we bonded. i let my guard down. i shared how i felt. he did too. so to think it was all a joke and a lie to him, ima be pissed as fuck.
jaime proposed tying the vote.
me, silas, and her vote aubry.
aubry, grant, zach vote alicia -- supposedly
and alciia votes jaime
and then on the revote, we vote out aubry and keep alicia in and hopefully she feels on the outs enough to try and work against this majority she's in
alicia does not talk to me. she is also not active. she also told zach we were "kissing her ass" when i was genuinely trying to be social with her. aubry and zach put in the time with me. so by today, i didnt necessarily want to see either of them go or piss them off by blindsiding them. i wanted to keep zach close to me because i want him to know he can trust me. hes not my #1 priority on this tribe. but i do still have his back over 3 other people. he should see value in that. he also revealed a lot of info to me about his tribemates. i could ruin his game if i needed to, but im not. so. idk. im pretty sure this si something i can use to my advantage if he is in fact being honest.
i didnt initially like aubry. i thought she was a gamebot but she oepend up and she seems genuine now. she's fun. i dont mind her. and i hope she is being honest with me about this vote. shes the one that expressed she doesnt want tribal lines to be a thing.
i dont know anymore.
grnat is very quiet. he does not intimidate me, but he does come across intimidating and others might be intimidated by him. i dont trust him.
not to mention,
alicia completely sucked at the challenge. did not contribute as much as anyone else. and shes consistently sucked. so i just dont see the point of keeping a majority strong whn we will end up at tribal anyway if we vote out people who are good at comps like silas, grant, myself, jaime, aubry too i guess to mention a few.
kinda iconic that i did the britney albums task during the challenge hahaha
did you guys like my love letter to justin? i felt pathetic writing it
also hilarious that they made me do the drawing challenge when i hvent drawn in maybe 14-15 years. i typically suck at challenges so it is not a good thing to feel like i was one of the people who contributed the most. that just means everyone else really, really sucks. i dont think everyone put their best effort. especially not alicia.
i also dont think its fair to keep someone as inactive as her over someone who genuinely wants to be here. i think that's kind of mean and just... not fair.
what else?
i feel good with silas and jaime. but i felt like they were closer with each other than me... until today. idk. maybe they arent. maybe we're all equals but who knows? theres always a hierarchy in alliances.
silas told me aubry told him she wants to work with me zach and him in an alliance. she didnt bring it up to me but i do think zach and aubry are closer than zach leads on.
if these people lied to my face and im leaving tonight or my allies are, then i just wanna say one thing to them:
fuck you. and thanks for wasting my time when i literally did not have time to waste. when i literally could not be around, i made the time to show up and if you guys cross me despite all my effort and time that i did not have but MADE for you, then yeah, like i said, fuck you.
im done.
this is the paranoia speaking. good bye.
where do i start
first of all, sorry ive been MIA im trying to be a good employee, friend, daughter, sister, and now a good alias survivor player all at the same time and it just hasn't been easy. lots of things going on in my personal life and this world in general. im kind of emotionally exhausted.
game talk,
sorry i missed round 3. did i tell you guys jamal told me he found the idol? yay! im happy he felt comfy enuf to tell me because if i found one, idk if i would ever tell anyone. i also havent been looking for the idol i honestly havent had the time lol plus i believe in working smarter, not harder. if all my allies are looking for clues, then im hoping they will be willing to share them with me and we can kind of figure shit out together lol
anyways.
i understand jamal might be feeling frustrated bc he hasnt gotten his way all game. and then we voted out marcus over ph (phoebe but i will call them ph) and spencer. but tbh, ph was never an option to vote out for me. i trust them for now at least, and spencer... i would vote out spencer but he is kind of good at comps and we needed to keep in that strength. i also feel like maybe he likes me more than i think he does. i feel bad im always dragging him in my convos with people lol. dnt really care that marcus had to go. he was super sweet when we spoke but we didnt really bond as tightly
and then there was the swap. and jamal's worst case scenario happened. so sorry jamal. i guess im not completely mad that they won the challenge over my tribe but that only counts if this loss doesnt come at my expense. as in yeah im goign to tribal, but hopefully its not me or one of my people going home. which at this very moment. 14 minutes before the vote, i am feeling extremely paranoid that i have fucked this vote up and either jaime, myself or silas is going home .
i came on this tribe and thought i developed a good relationship with zach. i thought we bonded. i let my guard down. i shared how i felt. he did too. so to think it was all a joke and a lie to him, ima be pissed as fuck.
jaime proposed tying the vote.
me, silas, and her vote aubry.
aubry, grant, zach vote alicia -- supposedly
and alciia votes jaime
and then on the revote, we vote out aubry and keep alicia in and hopefully she feels on the outs enough to try and work against this majority she's in
alicia does not talk to me. she is also not active. she also told zach we were "kissing her ass" when i was genuinely trying to be social with her. aubry and zach put in the time with me. so by today, i didnt necessarily want to see either of them go or piss them off by blindsiding them. i wanted to keep zach close to me because i want him to know he can trust me. hes not my #1 priority on this tribe. but i do still have his back over 3 other people. he should see value in that. he also revealed a lot of info to me about his tribemates. i could ruin his game if i needed to, but im not. so. idk. im pretty sure this si something i can use to my advantage if he is in fact being honest.
i didnt initially like aubry. i thought she was a gamebot but she oepend up and she seems genuine now. she's fun. i dont mind her. and i hope she is being honest with me about this vote. shes the one that expressed she doesnt want tribal lines to be a thing.
i dont know anymore.
grnat is very quiet. he does not intimidate me, but he does come across intimidating and others might be intimidated by him. i dont trust him.
not to mention,
alicia completely sucked at the challenge. did not contribute as much as anyone else. and shes consistently sucked. so i just dont see the point of keeping a majority strong whn we will end up at tribal anyway if we vote out people who are good at comps like silas, grant, myself, jaime, aubry too i guess to mention a few.
kinda iconic that i did the britney albums task during the challenge hahaha
did you guys like my love letter to justin? i felt pathetic writing it
also hilarious that they made me do the drawing challenge when i hvent drawn in maybe 14-15 years. i typically suck at challenges so it is not a good thing to feel like i was one of the people who contributed the most. that just means everyone else really, really sucks. i dont think everyone put their best effort. especially not alicia.
i also dont think its fair to keep someone as inactive as her over someone who genuinely wants to be here. i think that's kind of mean and just... not fair.
what else?
i feel good with silas and jaime. but i felt like they were closer with each other than me... until today. idk. maybe they arent. maybe we're all equals but who knows? theres always a hierarchy in alliances.
silas told me aubry told him she wants to work with me zach and him in an alliance. she didnt bring it up to me but i do think zach and aubry are closer than zach leads on.
if these people lied to my face and im leaving tonight or my allies are, then i just wanna say one thing to them:
fuck you. and thanks for wasting my time when i literally did not have time to waste. when i literally could not be around, i made the time to show up and if you guys cross me despite all my effort and time that i did not have but MADE for you, then yeah, like i said, fuck you.
im done.
this is the paranoia speaking. good bye.